I had been working on a journal entry for so long that I just couldn't word right at all, I remade this page so that I wouldn't have to. I've decided to archive the old posts, instead of fully deleting them like I did back in 2022. I don't know Who would even want to see those, but if you feel like studying me like a bug or amoeba under a microscope, go ahead. I don't really feel like the same person I was in college, so I don't know if you'll be getting any accurate present-day magnapina views, but maybe it's fun. I know I like reading peoples old online journals.

Remaking this page was pretty fun actually. It took way less time than I thought it would (though I've spent forever just trying to write a Journal Entry). And it's coded better than the old version, which didn't work great on phone screens. Despite my slowness, I've learned a bit about html/css that's really helped me make website pages that don't suck(hopefully?). It feels a little barren, and I'm also bad at finding fonts, so things might change in the future. We will see. I'm doing my best.

Honestly it's just been difficult to even think of what to put in an Online Journal. We do not need a Magnapina Mental Health Update (it's bad). We don't need to think about it. It's already halfway through 2026 and I've done very little. A tiny bit of good from my year: Despite being horrifically depressed, I took up running, for some reason, and I managed to run my first real 5 mile race last week. I never thought I'd be able to do that, so that's kind of cool.

I've been unable to focus on much lately. I don't have many ideas, either, and that's why all of my magnapina work in 2026 has just been me recoding pages. I've realized I'm not really a person capable of original thoughts or ideas. Maybe all the creativity I had as a kid has been beaten out of me by the past 6 years of mental illness & comparisons & overthinking. I think I hit a wall, and instead of working to improve, I decided to just settle for mediocrity forever, because it's easiest. I'll probably just keep poorly mimicking everything I see for the rest of my life. At least I can have fun with it.

I miss old Deviantart journals where you could fill out your current mood and what you were listening to and eating and drinking and whatnot. I was going to think of how to put that here, but I'm not sure how I'd want it to look/how to not have it look weird. I'm currently feeling attacked by mosquitoes.